Ups and Downs

So this weekend was a mixed weekend of ups (mostly) and downs (a few). Friday night was my official Subversion cherry bursting.  I did my Yoshimi routine for it and it seemed to go over well.  I had a much better time this go around then when I had done it before.  Woodsmith and Darkeyes were at the Crack Fox for it while Peaseblossom, Lamian, and Primal (formally Firedevil) were at Attitudes because Peaseblossom was performing.  Before my routine I got kissed by one of the other performers which caught me off guard but she's awesome so I'm not complaining. Hung out for a bit after the show but ended up going home around 2:30.

The next morning Woodsmith and I had an engagement party at his parents place. A lot of my parents family and friends were there and a few of his were. Lamian, Primal, and Darkeyes showed up as did some of our other friends Treehugger, Magic Hat, and Knitbear.  This was the start of my down. At least one of them. So as I've mentioned I'm polyamourous and have a poly family. My biological (and Woodsmith's for that matter) family doesn't know. I'm not used to keeping important things about my life like this from them and then on top of that I couldn't be affectionate towards them like I would want to.  Have you heard of the love languages? My top two are Touch and Quality Time and when I have to hide away from who I am it ends up with me feeling lost and depressed.

After the engagement party, which was good in all other ways, we went over to spend some time with Peaseblossom and Primal since Lamian had fallen asleep. Was there for a little bit of time but then had to head over to Attitudes to perform for Charlotte's Last Saturday Strip show. On the way there I told Woodsmith about my therapy homework to talk about power and from remembering how I've lost it in the past the funk I was in got much worse. Luckily I was able to make it through my solo and the finale but on the way home I continued to crash and ended up passing out in a nice bath and being told I had to go to bed.

Woke up in the morning and took my shower, then went back to sleep. Finally I started to get myself pulled together which was a really nice thing. My mom, Woodsmith's mom, Peaseblossom, Treehugger, Knitbear, Alice, and TKMC came over to do a spa day with me. It was a nice day of pampering that I pretty much needed. After the parents left I talked with others about what happened to me last night which was needed. Later Peaseblossom and I went to dinner where we got to talk more about life and everything.

So all in all was mostly good. Had a drop but it was able to be taken care of, which was amazing.